work's been awesome except for the piles of worksheets to be marked and evaluated.
well, i have the chi new yr break.
gonna clear all. but i want ridhwan to motivate me :)
hehe.
im sooo glad we are okay now.
well, not together but yea, close. :)
and i really hope it will stay this way.
no more fights.

so sleepy. goodnight.

its already february. and its gonna be a short one.
and this is the month, last year, i got to know Md. Ridhwan.
21st february, we saw each other at town.
he's my friend's friend so they said hi to each other.
next thing i knew, the very next day he asked for my number from my friend.
i can still remember everything vividly.
and it always will put a smile on my face.
the first text msg i got from him on 23rd feb around midnight and how it progressed.
the study sessions soon turned to lepak sessions and soon dating sessions. hehe.
and we made it offcial march 25th.
and we were hardcore, met everyday and spent long hours just hanging out at different places and talked and talked. days felt so short around him. its like i cant get enough of him. we marked certain places as our hot spots. haha. we went through everything together and it never failed to make us laugh and cry together. hes so bubbly and even im so down at my lowest, he brought me up, cheered me up. even when im typing this, im smiling non-stop, at the same time i am crying cause i really do miss him. badly. i miss how it was last time.
i miss how sweet he could be. go to whatever extent to do things for me, to fetch me, get me things i wanna eat or drink. i miss all of it, every single part.

yup we broke up. but for me, im still his gf. call me shameless but we still do love each other.
we broke up because i lied to him. i went out with my ex and our friends to Sentosa and he got pissed. i swear i regretted going. i miss sue. should have just catch up with her some other time. i want Ridhwan to know how much i regretted all this and wants things to go back to normal but i guess my lie really turned him off.

everyday i diligently pray that i can be with him again. like how it used to be.
i miss u ridhwan.
and i still do love u.
i donno if u would ever read this, but ya, well this is what i have got to say, from the bottom of my heart.
i really hope u can forgive me syg. :(

sorry pple, got carried away with some personal stuffs.
cheers pple!

i cant simply forget you just like that.
i wonder how u can do it.
almost every single thing that i do or go to reminds me of u.
for i cant simply let u go just like that.
i still do love u. very much.
:(

meeting my sec sch gals tmr. so cant wait.
weee.

i want my atuk to get well soooooooooooon.
his diabetes getting out of control.


u hanging out with that bitch and few other guys is much worst than me hanging out with guy friends with another girlfriend around. go figure.
time check: 10.45pm.
still hanging out at school.

i got home the other day 9pm.
:)

i can go out of my mind thinking of it.
its my fault. im well aware.
but i deserve to have a say in what i want and who i wanna meet.
esp friends of 5 years.

the more i think of you, the more my heart aches for you.
i wish you are here, i wanna hug and kiss you.
:(

but well, i have to push away those thoughts.

im loving 2010 so far :)
cool shit.

and best thing,
i love md ridhwan ramlan :)